Expect the Expected
12 August 2008As expected, good old Aunt Flo arrived right on schedule.
We’re not sure when we’re going to start the next (LAST!) fresh cycle. Even if my body doesn’t respond well to the next cycle again, I don’t think we’ll try another fresh cycle. Keep in mind, that the drugs alone are almost half the cost of a fresh cycle. So, when your body doesn’t respond you’ve still spent a pretty good chunk of change because you’ve taken all the expensive meds.
I can’t keep doing this, and it’s not just the cost. The drugs put me in a bad place for too long. For the entire time I’m on meds Drew has to walk on eggshells around me, and I can’t bring myself to get off the couch for weeks other then to drag myself to work. I’m stressed out. I’m putting on weight. I’m not myself anymore. I need to get back to “me” and get on with my life with or without children.
on August 12th, 2008 at 1:56 pm
Thinking of you. I know how much this sucks. I am sorry that you have to go through this again.
on August 12th, 2008 at 2:43 pm
Thanks, Stephanie. It wasn’t nearly as disappointing as the IVF failure, but we were still hoping that it would work.
on August 12th, 2008 at 8:32 pm
Chin up, relax, and go back to you for a bit; then try the fresh cycle.
on August 13th, 2008 at 4:53 am
sorry, that sucks. I think it is smart to set limits, and have a plan. Hope you get some time to focus on you.
on August 13th, 2008 at 7:17 am
A little bit of time to relax and breathe sounds so good right now.
Agreed about the limits. We knew from the beginning that 2-3 times was our max. We do have 2 frozen, which will be a last resort if the next fresh fails. And then we’ll be DONE done.
on August 13th, 2008 at 2:22 pm
Sorry for you guys but I think all your decisions are smart ones.
on August 14th, 2008 at 4:39 am
If there is any way for you to take a short break, perhaps that would be the way to go right now. Sounds like you need a breather. Take some time to gather up some energy, do some fun things, enjoy a glass of ice cold mojito, take long walks (or short runs), and make sure that your marriage is as strong as can be. I know it’s terribly difficult, but maybe putting the longing away for a moment to remember and feel the good things you have in your life right now. It’s really tough, I know that all too well, but it’s also important. Hang in there!
on August 14th, 2008 at 7:30 am
Thanks, Susan.
Sweetpea, I definitely need to get out and do some fun things. We didn’t do _anything_ this summer because we were so wrapped up in this.
on August 15th, 2008 at 6:43 pm
Amy, I’m sorry it didn’t work this time. I know what you mean about setting limits and needing to focus back on you and your relationship with your husband without all the craziness of the drugs. I have to admit there are times when I feel sad about our journey so far, but I do feel better physically and emotionally now that I’ve begun to focus on taking care of me again and enjoying my best friend. Hugs to you.
on August 16th, 2008 at 9:56 am
Thanks. We’re trying to get away to Hawaii for Thanksgiving. That should loosen me right up! : )
on August 19th, 2008 at 9:50 am
I can completely relate to how you feel. Stay strong, and best wishes with this next cycle. I’m not sure what’s more draining, the actual procedures, or the emotions that follow. But, just think happy baby thoughts.
PS..Thanks for the blog roll help.